Rossi mania!

So...I was at work...unpacking the modelling kits and guess what I found!!??
4 different kinds of modelling kits of Valentino Rossi's bikes!! w00t!! so, I told my boss I'd like to buy them, but haven't got the money yet...so he told me to take them home and pay him later...yipppie!! that was sooo cool! So right after dinner I sat down like a little kid at Christmas and started unpacking them and putting them together. All went very smoothly except for the big one. There are some mistakes, parts don't fit properly, screws get loose real fast etc etc, so I am taking it back to the shop tomorrow and tell my boss. Rather me having this trouble with it than actual customers.

Anyhoo..the 3 little ones are already in my room on the shelf next to the small one I have that looks like the big one in the picture.

I am soooooooooo happy with them!! just thought I'd share it ;)

BOOOOOREDDD

there we go again...gotta love Blogthings when you're bored haha!

You are 80% Capricorn

How Capricorn Are You?

nope you liars :P I am 100% Capi :P

I Believe In a Thing Called Love by The Darkness

"I wanna kiss you every minute, every hour, every day You got me in a spin but everythin' is A.OK!" You played it cheesy and campy in 2004, but you know how to rock out.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

So true!! hahaha I still love Blogthings heehee! SWEET!

Big Girls Don't Cry

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone

I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay


Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

The world is flat...

...and I am close to the edge!

God! Who invented guys anyway!!
They say they're gonna call you, but obviously they don't, not even when you send them a text to remember they said they were gonna call you.

But more imortantly...who ever made us women into what we are!!! Why the FUCK am I waiting for a bloody guy to give me a ring, when I know deep down inside he isn't going to call anyway....why am I having trouble getting to sleep because of the very same fact!!
I don't know who invented us women, but he must have been fucking high on drugs when he did so! Makes our body strong enough to get through childbirth...but meanwhile adds this plug-in that she can't sleep over a guy...DUDE YOU MESSED UP, LAY OFF THE DRUGS!!
But anyway, ofcours he also had to add a plug-in which makes you think more and more and more and more about the stupidest things right before you fall asleep, which, ofcourse, makes you even more fucked up before bedtime...I think I have been lying awake for like 3 hours before I could finally get some sleep, waking up early again....naturally.

In the end I decided to text a male friend of mine, of whom I KNOW he will text me back (even if it's a couple of hours after I sent the text). Well, must say that I felt much better after I texted him and finally fell asleep. Like, around 4am I woke up again and saw that my friend had texted me back...he is on holiday and is really enjoying himself...I am really happy for him, because where he is, is one of the nicest places in the world!

Meh....I feel like such an idiot and like I am making a fool of myself. Sometimes I just want to hide away for like a week or so to see if people would even miss me.
*Turn off cellphone
*Keep laptop turned off
*Don't check email
hmm, who knows I might just do that and see if I can find the life I thought I had...because at the moment it doesn't feel like I have a life...

***NOTE TO SELF***
Get a life...quick!

Weeeee Blogthings are back!!

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtfulBut you also haven't stopped thinking of yourselfYou're the perfect blend of independent and caringYou're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

heehee!

Your Passion is Pink!

You're the type of woman that would never get described as passionate... Oh but you can be passionate at times - you just don't let it show. Your passion most shows through in your sweet and optimistic attitude. And chances are, most people are very passionate about you!

What Type of Passionate Woman Are You?

awwww that is nice :D:D now I can go to bed happy knowing this all hahaha

hmm things made sense again :)

Wow....weird how one day you can feel like total and utter shit and how the next day you can feel your top best!!

Today I had to get up early (still bummed though that I missed one of my fav. films last night because I had to get up early...I am soooo sorry Jean-Claude!!) because I had an appointment with my doctor. Sooooo, I went there, waited for like 15 minutes before it was my turn :P and then when it was fi-nal-ly MY turn I was in there for like 5 minutes, got a note for the x-ray people at the hospital and left for work.

So I got to work, told them I had an appointment at 11.20am at the hospital and if it was ok that I'd go there. Well, my boss is like one of the coolest because really nothing is a problem! So...as I was walking home I decided to give one of my friends a call and felt really happy and stuff when I hung up...( I still like being mean :P). So I got home, got my student travel card (whoopee free public transportation for me :P) and went to the busstop. I guess I waited like 5 minutes, then the bus arrived, got to the hospital 5 minutes later, had my x-ray taken, waited for the bus back and then 5 minutes after I was back home! Everything went so smoothly and fast!!

So withing the hour I left for the hospital, had the x-ray taken, came back home, got lunch and got back to work.

Then my boss said I could leave around 3pm, yay! soooooo got back home again and decided to do absolutely nothing hahaha.

Just emailed a bit with my friend, then spent a lot of time IM-ing with a very cute (yeah yeah yeah pimp, gangsta, whatever :P) guy until it was time for him to go. So then I decided to take a nice hot bath, just to relax my muscles a bit. While I was in the bathtub my mother came home and as soon as I came out of the bathroom dinner was ready :D!!

She bought a new tv and even installing that went perfectly fine!!

Now I am just chilling a bit on the sofa, watching some Sex & the City (which rocks!!!) and writing this.

Maybe you'd say it was a boring day, but I wish I had more days like this!! I feel so totally at ease with everything at the moment.

Have been smiling ever since I got back from work...and yeah, that feels good! Thanks!

Stop the world for a day...

How come you can feel full of energy one day and then so bloody tired the next?

I did shit this weekend..nothing at all, had all the time I needed to relax an do nice stuff. I took that chance and did absolutely NOTHING! Exactly what weekends are intended for.

Then today I had to go to school, had to hand in some stuff, take a test and talk to one of my tutors.
Now I am back home and I am literally drained of all energy, mentally aswell as physically. My back and hip hurt, my eyes seem to be unable to stay open for longer than 10 minutes and I felt like crying ever since I left that schoolbuilding.

Maybe it has to do with the talk to my tutor.

I had to ask her if it would be possible to do my next placement in stages, because due to family circumstances I won't be home for two weeks in November. Well, the woman she is, there was a very blurry and confusing answer. She is always confusing everybody, including herself. She told me it would not be possible to take two weeks off school and that I better just sit this semester out and do it next year....EXCUSE ME???!!! I think I said I would be willing to do whatever it takes to make sure I finish this year on time...I already have plans for next year and I am not willing to give those up because YOU can't arrange for something.
Luckily I have my boss (read: mother lol) on my side and she is going to help me do whatever it takes to make sure I can finish my placement and more importantly my course within this academic year.

I guess it's the explaining why I feel I have to go those two weeks what got to me. It reminded me of how much my family has been through and how difficult it has been for all of us. I noticed how difficult I still find it to express myself and how hard it is to explain and say what you feel and think. I was almost in tears when I was talking to her, but managed not to...pfft who cries nowadays anyway...such a sign of weakness! ( I know deep down inside that this is not true, it's not weak, but still I don't allow myself to cry and if I do I hate myself for it time and time again).

I was so pissed off at everything when I left the schoolbuilding I couldn't even think straight...turned on my mp3-player full blast, so I guess the people travelling on the metro and the train with me got a pretty good picture of what music I listen to...fuck them anyway..

I am so done with school and life this way....sometimes I just wish I could stop the world from spinning one day...preferably in the mornings between sleeping and waking, when reality hasn't hit you that hard yet and you seem to be feeling happy I guess.

How great would it be to be able to lie in bed all day, thinking happy and warm fuzzy thoughts about things you are looking forward to, or dreaming about that one guy you fancy or just know that you can fall back asleep and the world will wait for you this one time to wake up and feel better.

My favourite time of day is waking up, being in that twilight zone and just don't let reality in your life yet. It's even better when you're with someone...waking up, turning 'round, hugging your love and fall back asleep like that...all warm, loved, yeah I guess you get the picture.

I Told the sun, not to shine and stay away
I Told the lake, to go dry and wash away
Am I wrong, am I strong, walk away
do I know there are no words to say
Am I yours, Am I mine, anyway
Do I know there are no words

I am the only princess, I'm indestructible
I am winged victory, I am so breakable
I am the distant planet, I am the golden sun
I am the broken pieces, I am the lonely one

Asked the sky, to fall down on you
Asked the night, to be solid proof
Am I good, am I bad, or the same
Am I bad, am I worse, stay away
Is there anything else left to say,
Are there really any words

I am the flying spaceship, Identifiable
I am the perfect lover, tell me I'm loveable
I am the distant planet, I am the purple sun
I am the highest mountain, I am the lonely one

So here's me now, without you
I Turn the lights out, without you
Should I be frightened, without you
Always night now without you

I am the darkest morning, I am the sleeping fool
I am the wandering gypsy, I'm right here next to you
I am the distant planet, I am the golden sun
I am the empty canyon, I am the lonely one

Lonely one

Welcome back!

Haven't been here in a long time! damn!! even forgot my password and everything hahaha

Between January and now I have been away to study abroad, had a serious fling lol and experienced some other shit.

I got back at like end of May, beginning of June and then spend two months being a jobless bum whoopee for me! But then my mother started to nag big time that I should get a job.

So, I applied for 3 jobs in total and worked at two of them (one of which I am still working at). The other two weren't really my thing so with the first one I just cancelled the application procedure and the second one, well I worked for them once and then I told them I couldn't work anymore due to a physical condition, which is connected to my serious fling lol!

So now I am an employee at a toystore near my house, I like it very much and they give me a lot of freedom in doing what I want and the hours I want to work. I haven't even worked there for a month and already they take my input seriously..that feels soooo good!

Now I am just trying to catch up with school a bit and trying to enjoy my last two months of freedom!!

Have been invited by a friend to come over next Saturday and have dinner there (pancakes yummy!!) and then just hang out with her and her friends, watching a film or something like that. Thing is that I have to be home on time again the day after because we have this family outing, big whoop! My aunt and uncle are married for 40 years ( I still don't understand how she puts up with him!!??) now and they decided to do something with their kids and grandchildren, so I wonder...since when am I a kid or grandkid of theirs?

Well I guess it's ok to go, because get to spend time with my two favourite boys in the whole world and everything is being paid for lol so yeah...I'll drag my sorry ass back to my house very early Sunday morning, take a quick shower and act all happy again the remainder of the day ;)

Oh right, now I know you're dying to here about my "serious fling".

I'll refer to him as Mr. X because I am original like that ;)

Mr. X and I met through our course, both being in England at the time. Appearantly the first time I met him I dragged him out onto the dancefloor and made him dance *cracks whip* and yeah, that is according to him, I can't say I remember much about it and I wasn't even drunk!

So, couple of times after that we just talked a lot, I danced a lot lol, because I love to dance, and invited him to my place a couple of times.

Then at one particular Theme night (999 night, similar to 911) at the student bar he was coming on to me like crazy. I'd brought a watergun (no not made out of water, but out plastic and you fill it with water duh) and filled it ofcourse, that's me. So when he came in (totally soaked by the way poor lad) I started to make sure he wouldn't get dry for the remainder of the night :P

At one point I must have let my guard down because he stole my gun from me, the cheek! and started using my own weapon against me, everytime aiming for either my face or my friends south from my face.

When we finally called it truce we were just messing around a bit, not like that you perv, like he was sitting at one end of the couch and me and my friend on the other side. Still, he had a particular look in his eyes and we so took advantage of him. Pretended to kiss eachother (the girl and I) and then touching ourselves and were doing sexy things on the couch...you could tell by the look on his face that we got him turned on haha.

So, crazy stuff aside, he set next to me and we were just observing some couples and he told me:

"You know what would be nicer than that whole bf gf thing, just kissing"

yup literally said that and then tried to kiss me. So uhmm yeah I was very nice, turned my face away when he tried to kiss me, said I was shy :P

Must be honest here, I really don't like kissing in public, especially not when it's a so called "first kiss". He was kind of disappointed and sent me a text after the party if I was really shy or just not interested, well I must admit that I definately WAS interested, couldn't think of anything else than kissing him lol, so yeah I sent him a text back saying that I really was shy.

Proved it to him when he came over a week later and we kissed anyway...it was really nice and stuff, knowing you can having a good time without being in love.

Anyway, one thing led to another and we ended up doing more than just kissing. It was all very nice, just a pity that he wasn't the "I want you now so I'll take you now" kind of guy.

Hey! sometimes a girl just wants a man who takes what he wants ;) so that was kind of a bummer, the rest was just plain nice and fun :) and I am not regretting any of it! :)

So, that ended when I came back home, I was a little bummed at first, but must admit that I am now enjoying my single-life again and am planning on staying single for a while...I'll just see what happens...and maybe in the future I'll meet a cute, nice, funny, charming (messy blonde haired), hot and so on guy who I can hit it off with, even if I have to travel all around the world to meet him ;)

Being alone doesn't mean you have to be lonely ;)